Why Me?

Oh how I hate to be me.

That's the one person I don't want to be.

If I could,

I'd lock my heart with a key.

The heart that beats for others.

The beat that no one hears.

The sound that tears

Tears because no one seem to care.

The care I give in abundance

And people can feel the dependence.

When will I gain independence?

I wish I had more sense.

You give me 100, I give 120

You call me a friend

And I show you how to be.

Is there someone out there for me?

Oh well, I couldn't be anyone else

Even if I wanted to be.

There's no one better out there.

No one better than me!

All I Desire!

I am scared of the moonless night

Frightened of the cloudy skies.

I don't want no shocks, only surprise.

I need a surety in my life.

I wanna wake up to the world.

I like peace, no stupid wars.

The universe is a place for love.

Have fights ever solved a wrong?

I don't like to see anyone cry.

Can hurt myself but won't let you die.

I love kids, rainbows and butterflies.

Would pray and serve for thy.

I am strong but feel insecure

At times of distress and discomfort.

I don't need a master, only an equal.

To be by my side forever!

I am scared of the moonless night

Frightened of the cloudy skies.

I don't want no shocks, only surprise.

I need a surety in my life!

Faking It!

Well I've held-up a lot.

Robbing you off your heart.

I know it is all my fault.

I should've said no before the time passed.

All i wanted was to be loved.

Dancing under the moon,

Being courted and enamored.

The intoxication came with a big cost.

I let you trust me

Let you hold my arm.

But My heart was never with you

Its still here, where it belonged.

I am a mean, wretched wench

To break it to you all.

The only reason i was with you

Is that i felt insecure and alone.

So now i've set you free.

Free to fly away from my little world.

You deserve the love that you gave me

And hope you could ever forgive my farce!

Haal-e-dil!

This is probably my first Hurdu poetry which means Hindi mixed with Urdu. (I am not proficient in the latter). Hope you like it!

Rakhte the jinhe palko par,

Unhi ne ashq diye.

Sauda kiya jinse dil ka,

Maati mol baich,

Wo bhi chal diye.

Bikhre tukdo ko samaitna nahi aasaan

Ye dil hai, koi khel nahi meri jaan.

Kha-kha kar thokre, humne chalna tha seekha

Kismet bhi aisi,

Ke pehle kadam pe dum tod gayi hamari chah.

Sajde kiye humne chaaro pahar

Masjid par mullah ko mila ye paigaam

Unhe bhi thi humse mohobbat

Par nazrein hui naadaan.

Ikraar jab talak lab par pahuncha

Beet gaye jawani ke wo saal.

Roye wo bhi, roye hum bhi

Farq bas do maujon ka hua.

Jaha pyaar mein humko mili khudai

Unka Jashn-e-junoon ghut-ghut kar fanaa hua.

You and Me!

One of my earliest works...

You and me

We both see,

That you need some feisty treat.

Lot of work

Have you done

Now you get some cool retreat.

Move on, sing a song, go ahead

And do some dance.

Make your heart a bit strong.

Come with me and play along.

All you have, all you got, all you show is

You are strong.

Well I know, I know you

And I can tell you need some peace.

Just shake hands

You come to me

I’ll tell you, what is life,

How to live that king size,

What is fun?

Its when you and me

Talk about everything under the sun.

You and me are destiny

We should be together.

Together as friends,

Together as we

Together as a pair of cherries.

In all, you plus me makes we

We will rock,

We will talk

And we will do our moon walk.

From a mother to a Child!

Silent night passes by

With sleepy eyes and musky sighs.

Little heart beats make one

With the sound of the breezy skies

Let me take you there

Where golden chariots of dreams fly.

Do not be afraid of the demons in your head

Let me take you away, let me hold you tight.

Come, fall asleep in my warm embrace

While i sing you my mother's favorite lullaby.

Your little eyes fall on my face

As you drift to another world with million butterflies.

I hear the silent snores,

As in peace you lie.

Your cherubic face

Swell my heart with pride.

This wonderful bundle of joy

Could there be a bigger blessing in my life?

Sleep my baby angel, sleep tight.

As mama sings you another lullaby

Remembering her days, when she was a child.

I relive each memory of the days that have passed by

I still can't believe you're all mine

I couldn't be happier even if i tried.

Gravestone of My Lover!

Early morning i recieve a letter,

While nail by nail my fate was being locked

In a big black coffin of an old life,

From the person who lay inside.

At the gravestone of my lover

I go everyday, to remember

The times we spent together.

At the gravestone of my lover

I dream of seeing a miracle

There is still hope for something better.

He told me there was life after death

That he'd be with me even in hell

I never believed his words

Always argued that we had no soul

At the gravestone of my lover

Now i come to see if he was truer

To witness the magic we once shared.

At the gravestone of my lover

I come to be near

I shed some hidden tears.

He was surrounded by a family i never had.

I try to become their anchor,

Even if i am an empty shell

I know their love was bigger.

At the gravestone of my lover

I come for the one i hold dear.

Fallen leaves and dirt that i clear.

At the gravestone of my lover

I hope to see some magic appear

Of course nothing ever happens, as i always feared.