The Many Me's

"Someday I am going to die!"

I realized with a shock.

This body will erode,

my brain will be go off.

I'll be burnt like logs on a winter night.

Someday I am going to die!

Will it hurt? Will I cry?

Will I writhe in pain the whole time?

Will I have someone by my side?

Will they come to say good bye?

Or will I have a lonely life?

Someday I am going to die.

What will they remember me by?

Would it be good riddance?

Or will they yearn for me?

Will there be grieving

On my final journey?

'Someday I am going to die',

A thought I had long back.

As a kid, a stranger to the world

Of time, age and healing power.

A kid I don't remember much of.

Weird How it never occurred..

Back when I was young

That you're too many, not one.

Every year, every stage, every phase

Through every love, loss or heartbreak

You shed your skin and mould

Into a new entity with the same soul. 

I visit you some times

In the garden of my memories.

Some old, some fading, some bright.

It's crazy how I see my own face

Yet find no resemblance

to that kid with shiny eyes.

I've changed without knowing.

No notice, no reminder or ultimatum.

It's funny how I used to worry

About dying a million years later.

Now all I care for is to lead the journey,

The destination hardly matters.

There are still so many Me's,

I am waiting to encounter.

Fairy Godmother

I wish I was a fairy Godmother…

You wouldn't have a moment of bother.

I know I would try to smother

You. I am known to indulge in a bit of coddle.

Oh, wouldn't it be great if I was

Your fairy Godmother.

You are no damsel

In need of saving.

You don't even want me

To be there defending.

And there in distress

Lies this guardian angel.

Who needs her protege

At the minimum, to trust her.

I am not indifferent.

I can see that I am not needed.

Yet I can't just leave you

To die of this suffering.

You are far from liberation.

Wrenched in your pain.

Since I can't help you,

I kill myself a little, every day.

I kick off my shoes

Walk over burnt embers.

I snatch your poisoned apple

And devour it with pleasure.

They seem not to grasp

The role of this parent.

Delivering from evil

Is her only saving grace.

So if you don't need me

I won't try to impose.

But I'll hurt myself

So I could feel close.

To you, my beloved

Darling child.

For I will forever,

Be your fairy Godmother.

Aaj Phir..

Saalo baad Aaj phir

Tumhari yaad aa Gayi.

Shakl toh ab dhundhli hai

Par baat yaad aa Gayi.

Rail gaadi mein baith kar Aaj

Phir wo raat yaad aa Gayi,

Nayi nayi thi aas tumhari

Wo dil ki tees yaad aa Gayi.

Uss raat ko upper berth par

Tumse door hone ka ehsaas tha.

Na Internet tab tha,

Na phone mera smart tha.

50 Rupaye ke aakhri recharge par

Ummeed meri jaag Gayi.

Wo raat humne yun hi

SMS mein bita di.

Saalo baad Aaj phir

Upper berth par leti hoon.

Achanak tumne jo khayi thi

Wo kasmein yaad aa Gayi.

Mann ki sooni galiyan

Aaj phir jagmaga Gayi.

Tumhari awaaz toh ab dhyaan nahi

Par usme bhare pyaar ki yaad aa Gayi.

Tumse hue lagav, tumhare aitbaar ki yaad aa gayi

Aaj ek baar phir, wo raat yaad aa Gayi.

If I Could Have you Forever...

If I could put you in a locket, I would.

Carry you around my neck

Show you the world as I see it,

Protect you from all wear & tear, I would.

If only I could.

If I could bring you to work with me,

Keep you nearby

Like a pen in my pocket.

Whip you out, only for the most precious tasks, I would.

If only I could.

If I could etch you on my ring

Like engravings on a wedding band.

Never take it off, and keep you safe

From the eyes of others,

Like a secret, I would.

If only I could.

Or maybe like a Kangaroo,

I could Hide you in my pouch.

Look out over you

And save you from all danger.

You know that I would right?

If only I could.

But all that I can do

Is cherish you like a childhood memory.

Sometimes hazy, sometimes sharp,

But always there in my heart.

If only though I could have you forever,

I would. I so would.

A Game Called Love

Pushed and shoved to the sideline

Till they want us.

Hushed & forgotten in a corner

till they need us.

Used, abused, refused, rebuked.

Dissed, dismissed, discharged, banished.

We are not people,

We are pawns.

And they know how to play us.

Groomed and pruned and polished

For their comfort.

Trained and entertained

By our ruthless butchers.

Scrapped, snipped, slashed, sheared.

Chopped, sliced, diced and minced.

We are not people,

We are lambs.

And they know their choicest cut.

Like a jailbird, guilty of loving too much,

We're bound in the shackles of its complexities.

Caught in the incantation of our wizards,

We yield to the pleonexia of these mercenaries.

We splurge; we indulge,

We spoil them with our zeal.

Our passion mistaken for sightlessness,

We're played like marionettes, on string.

And yet do you hear a single squeal?

A word of complaint, whining,

Or even a cavil?

We let them use us for their behoof

For we're clapped in the fetters,

In a game called love.

Your Call!

Me, i am nothing.

But you, you're a God.

God of small things

And God of everything thats wrong.

I can't hear or see

You can, but do you?

I can hear the truth in silence

You can't read it in their eyes?

I can't touch or feel

You can, though you never do.

I can feel their pain

Then how are you so immune?

I can't talk and be heard.

You can but you choose to be mute.

I can shout them there fault

Why are you so lost in oblivion?

I can't step-up and bring a change

I am nothing but you're human.

You have your rights and your duties

Still you are nothing better than an animal?

If only i could do those things

This world might be a better place to live.

You do have a chance

Its you call, what do you want to do?

Time to Move on!

I see it now

I see it well.

All the time

I felt like hell.

Moments of glory

Now look so gory.

Broken hearts & splattered tears.

I won't ever recover, i feared.

Took all the right steps

Towards a wrong joint.

Wasted our energy

Wasted our time.

I don't see no more a point

Beautiful days that we both spoiled.

From hurt to hatred

We switched in minutes.

We ached we cried.

What a paint we endeared!

If that's love

God not again!

Spare me the honour

Spare me the pain.

Took all the right steps

Towards a wrong joint.

Wasted our energy

Wasted our time.

I don't see no more a point

Beautiful days that we both spoiled.

Nah, its just life.

Go bring it on again.

I will fall and fall

till myself i regain.

With time it'll heal

Till then i will hide.

My heart, it is scarred

It will take some time.

Took all the right steps

Towards a wrong joint.

Wasted our energy

Wasted our time.

Life's too short to sit and whine.

So let's move on ,

Go out and shine!

A Journey to the world!

Cutting through the dark forest

I march down the lane of dreams

Out where my journey ends

a new adventure begins.

Link by link i break the monotony

of love, of life of the heavy skies.

The strength in me is getting unleashed

with every step i take in my stride.

Moments that bring uncertainty of mind

the golden picture gets hazy at times.

i want to go back to that bubble of mine,

where all is safe and all is fine.

I look up at the stars that shine.

Balmy breezes, fragrance of thyme.

They bring me the required sign.

Go out in the world, don't let yourself be bind.

Go spark and glow and blast and shine!

This is your moment, this is your time.

Energy renewed and heart full of faith.

I walk down the forest with joy embraced.