Gravestone of My Lover!

Early morning i recieve a letter,

While nail by nail my fate was being locked

In a big black coffin of an old life,

From the person who lay inside.

At the gravestone of my lover

I go everyday, to remember

The times we spent together.

At the gravestone of my lover

I dream of seeing a miracle

There is still hope for something better.

He told me there was life after death

That he'd be with me even in hell

I never believed his words

Always argued that we had no soul

At the gravestone of my lover

Now i come to see if he was truer

To witness the magic we once shared.

At the gravestone of my lover

I come to be near

I shed some hidden tears.

He was surrounded by a family i never had.

I try to become their anchor,

Even if i am an empty shell

I know their love was bigger.

At the gravestone of my lover

I come for the one i hold dear.

Fallen leaves and dirt that i clear.

At the gravestone of my lover

I hope to see some magic appear

Of course nothing ever happens, as i always feared.

The Transformed!

Wearing Pink became the new In thing.

Discarding Barbies,

Getting lip gloss in strawberry.

Gossips and love notes

Fluttering eyelashes,

Big red hearts in personal diaries.

Seemed overnight

My classmates turned from kids to girlies.

Forgotten pigtails

Giving way to newly curled hair.

Talk about crushes

Big bad boys in the school nearby.

So this was the new fad.

Mini-skirts, swooning and sparkly trinkets.

I was only happy with my dirty worn jeans and t-shirt!

Fighting in mud, wrestling with that mutt.

Burping competitions, eating double cheeseburgers

While those girls would diet with their low fat whole-wheat crackers.

Boys were toys to beat the hell out of.

Would kick your butt

If you talked about my neighbour

Who wants to be a "girl"

When you were the toughest in your section.

Argue with the teacher, sitting half time in detention.

And then you came along

Newbie to the town, 1st day in my class.

Your crinkled eyes smiling right at me

As if you knew my secret, the one for ever i hid.

The world came crashing down

I found myself blush even when i was alone.

The time for all first timers

Open hair, nicer shirt, polite words, softer tone.

Now i realised what happened to those girls.

It wasn't just a fad, it was a phenomenon

Started reading Shakespeare

Imagining myself as Juliet.

At last i was transformed

Into a girl i was earlier full of disgust.

Miss the day when i punched boys in the face

Now i blushed if i found them looking at my waist.

Now i love strawberry and fairytales

Oh God! What happened to my taste?

The Lost one!

If i told you that i love you, would you love me back?

If ever i came to your house, would you turn your back?

If i ever came to hug you, would you just side-track?

If only i did all those things, i might have a chance!

If you were there, you'd hate me,

If you were there, you'd kiss me back.

Never took a risk in my life

And now yours is gone!

All i did was hope and waiting,

Secretly admired your beautiful heart.

Scared to lose your friendship

Never gave you a single pass.

When i had time, i thought of future

Now even my present is lost.

If only i could get back those moments,

If only i could get to my past!

Desires, wishes and broken dreams..

Oh why did i ever pull that farce?

No use regretting my whispered feelings

The one i love is now far gone!

Sleepless!

Words wove into hums

As thoughts turned to slurs.

Ever since the stars came out

Headless, heartless zombie i've become.

The moment i wished

My soul to return,

It flew away with my pain

How empty i've turned.

Happiness seems a distant memory

Poison that stings my eyes

Makes me coil, writhe and burn

How i wish for the dreams to return.

Frenzied brain looks for incentives

Random faces start to twirl

All i can see is a fray of visions

My night's a chaotic jungle.

Like a wolf on a full moon night

Like a vampire off enstranged wife

Like a cat in the middle of a puddle

Loneliness is one big trouble.

Random spurts of active replies.

Hangover from a night of full high

Giggles, tears, love and fears

A sleepless wanderer, looks for a miracle.

Your Lies!

With body of a God

And face sweetly evil,

Your insinuation in my life

Was a call from the devil.

You smelt of eternal sins

And tempted me to your gorgeous self.

All the while cashing million-dollar cheques

And here i was thinking you were the perfect man.

Your words made me weak

Your touch made me whole

I was so insanely in love

I couldn't see the mask you wore.

The gleam in your eyes

The sheen on rainy nights

How was i so blind?

Accepted all your lies.

Never came to my senses

Not until you tossed me in the sky!

Your Call!

Me, i am nothing.

But you, you're a God.

God of small things

And God of everything thats wrong.

I can't hear or see

You can, but do you?

I can hear the truth in silence

You can't read it in their eyes?

I can't touch or feel

You can, though you never do.

I can feel their pain

Then how are you so immune?

I can't talk and be heard.

You can but you choose to be mute.

I can shout them there fault

Why are you so lost in oblivion?

I can't step-up and bring a change

I am nothing but you're human.

You have your rights and your duties

Still you are nothing better than an animal?

If only i could do those things

This world might be a better place to live.

You do have a chance

Its you call, what do you want to do?

On a Rainy Day!

Laid down on fresh cut grass

To gaze upon the silver grey clouds

With first drop of rain that falls

My mind began to wander on.

Silence hums louder than spoken words

The music of life, the gentle hum-drum

Fluttering birds, going back to their homes

Sweeping memories weave a new tune.

Sweet aroma of now wet earth

Fills your heart with peace and love

Little kids jumping in puddles of mud

While caring mothers nurse hot tea-cups.

Small street dogs whimper in cold

Thunder brings young hearts so close

As promenades fill with lovers to court.

A busy day slows down to watch the show

1st day of monsoon, the bliss that nature holds!