Fairy Godmother

I wish I was a fairy Godmother…

You wouldn't have a moment of bother.

I know I would try to smother

You. I am known to indulge in a bit of coddle.

Oh, wouldn't it be great if I was

Your fairy Godmother.

You are no damsel

In need of saving.

You don't even want me

To be there defending.

And there in distress

Lies this guardian angel.

Who needs her protege

At the minimum, to trust her.

I am not indifferent.

I can see that I am not needed.

Yet I can't just leave you

To die of this suffering.

You are far from liberation.

Wrenched in your pain.

Since I can't help you,

I kill myself a little, every day.

I kick off my shoes

Walk over burnt embers.

I snatch your poisoned apple

And devour it with pleasure.

They seem not to grasp

The role of this parent.

Delivering from evil

Is her only saving grace.

So if you don't need me

I won't try to impose.

But I'll hurt myself

So I could feel close.

To you, my beloved

Darling child.

For I will forever,

Be your fairy Godmother.

Aaj Phir..

Saalo baad Aaj phir

Tumhari yaad aa Gayi.

Shakl toh ab dhundhli hai

Par baat yaad aa Gayi.

Rail gaadi mein baith kar Aaj

Phir wo raat yaad aa Gayi,

Nayi nayi thi aas tumhari

Wo dil ki tees yaad aa Gayi.

Uss raat ko upper berth par

Tumse door hone ka ehsaas tha.

Na Internet tab tha,

Na phone mera smart tha.

50 Rupaye ke aakhri recharge par

Ummeed meri jaag Gayi.

Wo raat humne yun hi

SMS mein bita di.

Saalo baad Aaj phir

Upper berth par leti hoon.

Achanak tumne jo khayi thi

Wo kasmein yaad aa Gayi.

Mann ki sooni galiyan

Aaj phir jagmaga Gayi.

Tumhari awaaz toh ab dhyaan nahi

Par usme bhare pyaar ki yaad aa Gayi.

Tumse hue lagav, tumhare aitbaar ki yaad aa gayi

Aaj ek baar phir, wo raat yaad aa Gayi.

If I Could Have you Forever...

If I could put you in a locket, I would.

Carry you around my neck

Show you the world as I see it,

Protect you from all wear & tear, I would.

If only I could.

If I could bring you to work with me,

Keep you nearby

Like a pen in my pocket.

Whip you out, only for the most precious tasks, I would.

If only I could.

If I could etch you on my ring

Like engravings on a wedding band.

Never take it off, and keep you safe

From the eyes of others,

Like a secret, I would.

If only I could.

Or maybe like a Kangaroo,

I could Hide you in my pouch.

Look out over you

And save you from all danger.

You know that I would right?

If only I could.

But all that I can do

Is cherish you like a childhood memory.

Sometimes hazy, sometimes sharp,

But always there in my heart.

If only though I could have you forever,

I would. I so would.

The First Damn Kiss

He called up,

Butterflies went astray

In my tummy.

It was Christmas in May.

I'd been building the courage

To tell him 'I love you',

And hug him so tight

I would never have to let him go.

But he seemed so lost

In his thoughts,

It scared me to think

He was into some other blonde.

So I sat there in my pretty pink maxi

And gave him a smile,

my nude lips spread wide.

While my heart lurched in my body.

We talked, we ate,

We drank and then he paid.

He said, "let me drop you."

And I said, "I rather walk."

He said, "let me come with you

I want to have some serious talk."

We crossed a lane and

Took a turn.

My house was built

In the greener part

Of the city and it was rather quiet.

And then it happened & took me by surprise.

He took my hands into his

(That he never ever did),

And came so close it caught my breath.

He said I have to do one thing...

He then kissed me smack on the lips.

I wish I knew how to respond,

Coz I just gave him a jerk at first

And then as he eased into me,

My mouth just opened,

Gave way to his tease.

Slowly my fingers crawled upto his face,

And explored each bit again & again.

"This was happening, wasn't it?

He was gonna propose to me?

Shoot it's too early

This is just my first kiss."

A mile a minute, my bran sprinted

As he devoured my plump lower lip.

I wish I could tell him how strongly I felt.

But at that very moment

My knees were a wreck.

He let me go finally.

It felt like a decade

Had passed in the meantime,

As we stood in a tight embrace.

That's when I realised

This is all I ever wanted.

To be in his arms for a lifetime;

Forever.

I could tell you more

But suffice it to say,

It's been 10 years

And he's still kissing

As if for the very first time.

A Game Called Love

Pushed and shoved to the sideline

Till they want us.

Hushed & forgotten in a corner

till they need us.

Used, abused, refused, rebuked.

Dissed, dismissed, discharged, banished.

We are not people,

We are pawns.

And they know how to play us.

Groomed and pruned and polished

For their comfort.

Trained and entertained

By our ruthless butchers.

Scrapped, snipped, slashed, sheared.

Chopped, sliced, diced and minced.

We are not people,

We are lambs.

And they know their choicest cut.

Like a jailbird, guilty of loving too much,

We're bound in the shackles of its complexities.

Caught in the incantation of our wizards,

We yield to the pleonexia of these mercenaries.

We splurge; we indulge,

We spoil them with our zeal.

Our passion mistaken for sightlessness,

We're played like marionettes, on string.

And yet do you hear a single squeal?

A word of complaint, whining,

Or even a cavil?

We let them use us for their behoof

For we're clapped in the fetters,

In a game called love.