Postcard Winters!

I always dreamt of a White Christmas

Of foggy hills and misty weather.

Of Santa hopping down smoking chimneys

And kids playing out, making snow angels.

And then I woke to a hazy sky

In distance heard a train whistle.

The birds were chirping melodious songs

A soulful symphony of approaching winters.

At length I smelled the fire logs

And heard on streets some barking dogs.

I stepped on the streets to view the scenario

Lo and Behold! The snow hit this season.

Gentle cool breeze caress my hair

As I write this piece with a heart so open.

My frozen nose tip bears witness to this miracle.

I'll finally celebrate my white Christmas.

The Fallen one!

I've been craving for so long

This desire building inside me.

Torturing me to the core.

A pain so deep and intense,

I cannot find the words.

I've screamed my self sore.

Tumbling, crawling, falling

I've crossed over to the dark side.

Believe me, this pain has only grown worse.

It hurts and burns in places I don't even know.

And yet I've lost all sensation.

Painfully numb that I have become.

There's no redemption for me.

You're gone, lost in a world of your own,

While I am thrown in a hell worse than anyone could know.

Caged in your love!

Faceless lover,

How shall I remember you?

No smile, no anger, no blink of an eye.

Words were never enough

The emotions, the expressions

And I miss your voice.

How could I love an idea?

A voice in my head?

If only you were here, by my side.

Faceless lover,

How long for will I suffer?

Every living moment is a nightmare, sigh.

Just one glimpse, a look.

Let me steal a glance.

Why did you abandon me, why?

Faceless lover, oh nameless figure…

How have you kept me spellbound for so long?

Its been way too long, set me free, I wanna fly.

A Heavenly Bond!

Har kisi ko mukammal jahan milega

Har sacchi dua ka jawab milega

Mandir-masjid mein mol-bhav na kar ae bande

uski Rahon mein Sada insaaf milega.

Darwaze mann ke chote ho tere

Par Bhagwan ke dar ki chaukhat bahaut hai

Tu maang maang ke thak jaye

Wo har mod pe deta rahega.

Tu Dukh mein le ya sukh mein le naam

Ik wo hi tujhe kabhi na bhoolega

Kabhi lagta zarur hai main uska apna nahi

Lekin uske bina mera jeewan adhoora hai.

The Lost One!

I wish I was a flower

you picked up on your way.

Or at least if just a stone

You stumbled on as you hurried.

If only I could witness

The rising sun of June.

But all that was left in my time was

evening shadows that loomed.

I prayed to own forever

Your love and adoration.

But By the time my turn came up

I found a heart so deeply battered.

I envy the paths you crossed

For they saw you in varying colours.

But I was meant to be The destination

Where you reached at the peak of erosion.

The Rebirth!

When I was looking for light elsewhere

I found it shining deep within me

The bubble of strength kept stretching

Till it encompassed all of me.

I believed no one could fight alone

I was too weak to win a war

But when it was my time to perform,

I tore down every window, roof and wall.

So the universe plot a decoy;

It threw me off my path.

And I was left grasping,

For the shards of life and memories of past.

And I lost all those that made me whole

Leaving traces and shadows behind.

So I kept running and running

To catch up with their lies.

I wished for Him to resurrect my soul

Resuscitate my heart into pumping out warmth

As the empathy drained out of me

Leaving me cold, empty and hard.

At last when nobody came to help

I pushed the limits to stand out tall

Tumbling, falling, losing control

I finally made it to the top.

At last I've lost all pain and grief

Don't wish for suffering on those who wronged.

For my assassination gave birth to a new me

And I'll keep dragging my old corpse...

Good Riddance!

You thought you could walk in my life

And Tell me I should go die.

Well babe, lemme tell you how I feel.

You ain't that good looking too.

And You know what?

I like me. I love me.

You better get used to this.

You wont find any guilt in here.

I've met crazier.

I am not your baby, yo.

Yeah, I got flaws like everyone else.

At least I don't hide 'em under a pretense.

If you dun like me, why stick around till the end.

Just leave me alone while you still can.

Oh and by the way

I like me. I love me.

You better get used to this.

You wont find any guilt in here.

I've met crazier.

I am not your baby, yo.

Oh look who I found?

Someone who appreciated me all along.

Dunno why I wasted my time on you.

You were certainly not worth going to.

Coz You know what?

I like me. I love me.

You better get used to this.

You wont find any guilt in here.

I've met crazier.

I am not your baby, yo.

My Fairytale!

I've seen true devotion

In my parents' eyes

I've seen love and commitment

And a world so fine.

And I know I couldn't settle for less.

I want a love like theirs

I want a perfect affair.

A real happy ending

That I know is out there.

His dreams and aspirations

All comprise of me.

Whatever he does, he does it for me

And I shall know they couldn't come better than him.

Oh, a passion so pure

It is tailor-made for me.

Where my heart beats wildly, just for him.

When the only person my eyes focus on

Is the one standing beside me.

Yes, I won't settle for anything less

Lesser than what I've seen.

And one day they will write

A fairytale, starring me and my lover to be.

Picture Perfect!

And then I sprang and ran and sang.

My feet feel light and springy.

Water-coloured scenery, a treat for my eyes.

Dancing sunflowers in the field.

Azure blue sky overhead

Feather-like clouds filling in the blanks.

Picture perfect memories crowding my head.

I wouldn't have believed you on hearing all that.

So I sprang and ran and sang.

Been chasing this dream of a life since who knows when.

And in this world of orange sunsets and white sand

I lay on dewy grass and devour this moment, as much as I can.

A Day to Remember!

Its 9 pm and the sun is still high

The crowd on the streets never seem to die.

Who would have thought I'd be here one day

Celebrating my birthday at Champs Elysees?

When the strangers would shower

Greetings under a twinkling Eiffel Tower.

Visiting Louvre, climbing bridges,

All the things a girl forever wishes.

All thanks to my parents and my savior

To have blessed me with something

so amazing and memorable.

Totally out of this world!

Mera Ladla!

I wrote this song and performed a little folk dance (Kathak) number on it 2 years back for my grandmother. Happy Janmashtmi to all! Enjoy!

Mere chote se nandgopala

Meri aankhon ka tu hai tara.

Jab mujhe chede, muskaye

Mera mann gungunaye

Hai re…..

Mote-mote naino se yoon dekhta hai tu

Bansi se pyaari-pyaari dhun chedta hai yoon

nanhe-nanhe haathon se, hooooo

nanhe-nanhe haathon se mere sang khelta hai tu,

mero pyaro nandlal

mero pyaro nandlal

mera jeewan hai tu.

Teri atkhaliyon ne

Mujhe maa banaya,

Mere is ghar mein aake

Tune ise sawara

Teri bholi baaton ne, hooo hoo hoo hooo

Teri bholi baaton ne mera mann aise chhed dala.

Mero pyaro nandalal

Mero pyaro nandalal

Meri duniya hai tu.

Thoda nathkhat hai tu,

Bade bhaiyya ka dulara

Poora din galiyon mein

Matki phodne wala.

Maa ki aankhon se bach jaata hai tu.

Mero pyaro nandalal

Mero pyaro nandalal

Tere bin jag soona hai sara….

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