My Merry Christmas!

When the bells jingle, people mingle,

music sways me in your direction.

Under the mistletoe begins my merry Christmas!

You're the gift i ever asked for

And tonight i give you yours as well

Under the satin sheets

Nudging and cuddling, we have a Merry Christmas!

No cookies out for Santa tonight.

I want only angels to smile.

The ecstasy of togetherness

Is the wonder of our Merry Christmas!

1st snow of winter broke the ice

Slipping and drifting when i caught your sight.

I never ever believed back then

Of me having a Merry Christmas!

I Missed Christmas!

I missed Christmas this year.

Joy came to the world

But forgot to knock on my door.

I didn't jingle any bells in cheer.

"Dear Santa", is all my letter read.

No candies, or toys or wishes did I ask for

No red socks hung in my living room.

No mistletoe, candy cane or tiny knick-knacks.

I didn't sing no carols,

I didn't bake no gingerbread.

People out there were buying presents.

I didn't even wear something remotely red.

I went to the church

And prayed with an empty heart.

I missed Christmas this year

Just hope He doesn't forget me, Santa Claus.

Love Hurts!

This is a Hindi/Urdu poem i wrote in 3 versions of Hindi, English and Urdu. Please excuse any spelling mistakes.

English:-

Aisa bhi kya keh diya hamne?

aisi kya ho gayi khata?

Mere shabdo ko bhi mil gayi

begunahi ki sazaa.

Dil se jaate nahi

Sapno mein aate nahi

Har sans mein base hain

Tanhai ke nishaan.

Har aah mein chupa hai

bas mera dard.

Isse toh kahi behtar hoti

kaanto ki dagar.

Na tum ho

Na hi tumhari chah

Tumhe toh kya hi hoga

Mere wajood ka bhi ehsaas.

Raatein bheeg gayi

mere aansoonoan mein

Shabnam jal gayi

Tumhari raah mein.

Mila kya mujhe

iss pyaar mein?

Dil toh gaya hi

Jaan bhi na rahi ab mujhme.

Hindi:-

ऐसा भी क्या कह दिया हमने

ऐसी क्या हो गयी ख़ता

मेरे शब्दों को भी मिल गयी

बेगुनाही की सज़ा।

दिल से जाते नही

सपनो में आते नही

हर सांस में बसे हैं

तन्हाई के निशाँ।

हर आह मे छिपा है

बस मेरा ददॅ।

इस से तो कही बेहतर होती

काटों की डगर।

ना तुम हो

ना ही तुम्हारी चाह

तुम्हे तो क्या ही होगा

मेरे वजूद का भी एहसास।

रातें भीग गयी

मेरे आसुँओं में

शबनम जल गयी

तुम्हारी राह में।

मिला क्या मुझे

इस प्यार में

दिल तो गया ही

जान भी न रही अब मुझ में।।

Urdu:-

ایسا بھی کیا کہ دیا ہم نے

ایسی کیا ہو گئی خطا

بے گناہی کی سزا

دل سے جاتے نہیں

سپنوں میں آتے نہیں

ہر سانس میں بسے ہیں

تنہائی کے نشان

ہر اہ میں چھپا ہے

بس میرا درد

اس سے تو کہیں بہتر ہوتا

کانٹوں کی دگر

نہ تم ہو

نہ ہی تماری چہ

تمھیں تو کیا ہے ہوگا

مرے  وجود کا احساس

راتیں بھیگ گی

میرے آنسوؤں میں

شبنم جل جائے

تمہاری راہ میں

ملا کیا مجھے

اس پیار میں

دل تو گیا ہی

جان بھی نہ رہی اب مجھ میں

Have you Ever...

Have you ever been in a haze...

Where words disappear

Before forming an image?

Where love smears a lover

With gore of blood and pain?

Where everything is a joke

And the punchline is your name?

Where your trust is a toy

And breaking it is a game?

Where tears are your companion

And friends have no more shame?

Where everything is a mystery

And faith is unattained?

When all you have is questions

That you try to answer in vain?

I guess I am not the only one.

Then why do I feel so amazed?

Life's a bitch for everyone.

I just have no umbrella in the winter rain...

When They Hurt!

Resurrecting broken walls

Of sheltered heart

And protected joy,

You came to my life

And went away

In the blink of an eye.

Linking pearls

Of lost wisdom

You formed a shackle

Of bitter-sweet relations.

Then turned around

To fly away in the blue sky.

Lifting wings

of a fallen angel.

You painted them

In shades of pure passion

Then left her wanting

To disappear in the thick fog of dismay.

What you achieved

You might as well say.

You got nothing to lose

And i got nothing to gain.

My love was a temple of adoration

Why did you think it a child's play?

Part Of Me!

Your lips speak of my heart

Your eyes talk of my dreams

Your face oozes a warmth

That takes the breath out of me.

The stories of my childhood

Are lost in your hair.

My pain and my sorrows

Are whispered in your ears.

Your soul reaches out to my soul

My body beats with your heart

Your thoughts are mirrored in my thoughts

Don't know where you end, where i start.

An old poem i found in my dairy.*

Why Me?

Oh how I hate to be me.

That's the one person I don't want to be.

If I could,

I'd lock my heart with a key.

The heart that beats for others.

The beat that no one hears.

The sound that tears

Tears because no one seem to care.

The care I give in abundance

And people can feel the dependence.

When will I gain independence?

I wish I had more sense.

You give me 100, I give 120

You call me a friend

And I show you how to be.

Is there someone out there for me?

Oh well, I couldn't be anyone else

Even if I wanted to be.

There's no one better out there.

No one better than me!

All I Desire!

I am scared of the moonless night

Frightened of the cloudy skies.

I don't want no shocks, only surprise.

I need a surety in my life.

I wanna wake up to the world.

I like peace, no stupid wars.

The universe is a place for love.

Have fights ever solved a wrong?

I don't like to see anyone cry.

Can hurt myself but won't let you die.

I love kids, rainbows and butterflies.

Would pray and serve for thy.

I am strong but feel insecure

At times of distress and discomfort.

I don't need a master, only an equal.

To be by my side forever!

I am scared of the moonless night

Frightened of the cloudy skies.

I don't want no shocks, only surprise.

I need a surety in my life!

Faking It!

Well I've held-up a lot.

Robbing you off your heart.

I know it is all my fault.

I should've said no before the time passed.

All i wanted was to be loved.

Dancing under the moon,

Being courted and enamored.

The intoxication came with a big cost.

I let you trust me

Let you hold my arm.

But My heart was never with you

Its still here, where it belonged.

I am a mean, wretched wench

To break it to you all.

The only reason i was with you

Is that i felt insecure and alone.

So now i've set you free.

Free to fly away from my little world.

You deserve the love that you gave me

And hope you could ever forgive my farce!

Haal-e-dil!

This is probably my first Hurdu poetry which means Hindi mixed with Urdu. (I am not proficient in the latter). Hope you like it!

Rakhte the jinhe palko par,

Unhi ne ashq diye.

Sauda kiya jinse dil ka,

Maati mol baich,

Wo bhi chal diye.

Bikhre tukdo ko samaitna nahi aasaan

Ye dil hai, koi khel nahi meri jaan.

Kha-kha kar thokre, humne chalna tha seekha

Kismet bhi aisi,

Ke pehle kadam pe dum tod gayi hamari chah.

Sajde kiye humne chaaro pahar

Masjid par mullah ko mila ye paigaam

Unhe bhi thi humse mohobbat

Par nazrein hui naadaan.

Ikraar jab talak lab par pahuncha

Beet gaye jawani ke wo saal.

Roye wo bhi, roye hum bhi

Farq bas do maujon ka hua.

Jaha pyaar mein humko mili khudai

Unka Jashn-e-junoon ghut-ghut kar fanaa hua.

You and Me!

One of my earliest works...

You and me

We both see,

That you need some feisty treat.

Lot of work

Have you done

Now you get some cool retreat.

Move on, sing a song, go ahead

And do some dance.

Make your heart a bit strong.

Come with me and play along.

All you have, all you got, all you show is

You are strong.

Well I know, I know you

And I can tell you need some peace.

Just shake hands

You come to me

I’ll tell you, what is life,

How to live that king size,

What is fun?

Its when you and me

Talk about everything under the sun.

You and me are destiny

We should be together.

Together as friends,

Together as we

Together as a pair of cherries.

In all, you plus me makes we

We will rock,

We will talk

And we will do our moon walk.